Published on November 3rd, 2023 | by Jennifer Caroccio Maldonado0
I kept obsessively watching videos on YouTube about the fertilization process. Hoping I could teach my body how to conceive a baby. Conceive is the word they use. As if my body ran out of good ideas. I wanted so badly to be pregnant. I thought it silly to want what is supposedly a biological imperative. I was just met with my own desperation—disguised in different hairstyles playing back at me through the obsidian screen. Of course I couldn’t conceive of a brand new being. Not when I was so unoriginal in my own suffering.